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ople；　and　there　remained　always　the　want　she　could

put　no　name　to。

It　was　so　difficult。　There　were　so　many　things；　so　much　to

meet　and　surpass。　And　one　never　knew　where　one　was　going。　It　was

a　blind　fight。　She　had　suffered　bitterly　in　this　school　of　St。

Philip's。　She　was　like　a　young　filly　that　has　been　broken　in　to

the　shafts；　and　has　lost　its　freedom。　And　now　she　was　suffering

bitterly　from　the　agony　of　the　shafts。　The　agony；　the　galling；

the　ignominy　of　her　breaking　in。　This　wore　into　her　soul。　But

she　would　never　submit。　To　shafts　like　these　she　would　never

submit　for　long。　But　she　would　know　them。　She　would　serve　them

that　she　might　destroy　them。

She　and　Maggie　went　to　all　kinds　of　places　together；　to　big

suffrage　meetings　in　Nottingham；　to　concerts；　to　theatres；　to

exhibitions　of　pictures。　Ursula　saved　her　money　and　bought　a

bicycle；　and　the　two　girls　rode　to　Lincoln；　to　Southwell；　and

into　Derbyshire。　They　had　an　endless　wealth　of　things　to　talk

about。　And　it　was　a　great　joy；　finding；　discovering。

But　Ursula　never　told　about　Winifred　Inger。　That　was　a　sort

of　secret　side…show　to　her　life；　never　to　be　opened。　She　did　not

even　think　of　it。　It　was　the　closed　door　she　had　not　the

strength　to　open。

Once　she　was　broken　in　to　her　teaching；　Ursula　began

gradually　to　have　a　new　life　of　her　own　again。　She　was　going　to